Saturday, August 14, 2004
INSIGHTS AFTER A 3-HOUR LUNCH DATE
i am me. i am designed, wired, and created to be me. i wouldn't be me if i mirrored other people. i wouldn't be me if i took on their jobs, their lifestyle, their careers. i am me.
i am growing and changing every second. the me two minutes ago was different. what more the me from four months ago? the me from five years ago? i am changing. i am growing up. but i am growing up to be me.
hindi na ako mapalagay. there is discomfort, a metaphysical unease, a mental disturbance. it needs to be addressed. i cannot shelve it (again). i cannot dismiss it (again). i need to do something about it. i need to address it. it is screaming out to be acknowledged and to be heard. i have to have a gameplan. otherwise, i will go crazy in the head. magwawala ako.
everything happens for a reason. everyone is a messenger of life. everybody has a reason for being. every movement has a purpose. every person i meet has a message for me. every relationship i've had has taught me lessons. every life stage is a growth process.
make purposive decisions. take baby-steps to reach that big dream.
what do i want? who do i want to be? where do i want to go? i want to see the world. the world is out there. i want to know who i can be. i want to know what (more) i can do.
i am going through a growth spurt. i am growing up too fast. too fast for my fishbowl of a world.
SALAMAT, mama mita.
i am growing and changing every second. the me two minutes ago was different. what more the me from four months ago? the me from five years ago? i am changing. i am growing up. but i am growing up to be me.
hindi na ako mapalagay. there is discomfort, a metaphysical unease, a mental disturbance. it needs to be addressed. i cannot shelve it (again). i cannot dismiss it (again). i need to do something about it. i need to address it. it is screaming out to be acknowledged and to be heard. i have to have a gameplan. otherwise, i will go crazy in the head. magwawala ako.
everything happens for a reason. everyone is a messenger of life. everybody has a reason for being. every movement has a purpose. every person i meet has a message for me. every relationship i've had has taught me lessons. every life stage is a growth process.
make purposive decisions. take baby-steps to reach that big dream.
what do i want? who do i want to be? where do i want to go? i want to see the world. the world is out there. i want to know who i can be. i want to know what (more) i can do.
i am going through a growth spurt. i am growing up too fast. too fast for my fishbowl of a world.
SALAMAT, mama mita.
